The people who know me best will tell you that I'm not one to really let too may people in. It's funny, because 'callie' means 'fortress' - and I really am quite a fortress in many ways. I have the same 3 friends that i've had forever, and the truth is that I am really not interested in making new friends or letting new people in. It's kind of a flaw in me, and I do know that. I have a tendency to build a wall around myself when I meet new people. I usually come off as rude, and i've been told by almost every single person that i've managed to really become friends with that the first few times we met, they were intimidated by me. I really hate that I behave this way...but the harsh truth is that I do.
But the flipside to this personality defect is that when I find a kindred spirit in the world, my heart blossoms and I let them in and keep them in forever and ever. I can honestly count on two hands the number of people I've honestly let in, and Mariam is one of them. It never matters the space that separates us, I consider her a true friend, and I really love her.
On her birthday, I wish we could've had champagne and giggled and shared secrets - and I wish I could've told her in person what our friendship means to me, and how much she inspires me. I know she inspires us all, and that her love for us is palpable. I can't wait for the day when we can celebrate all the birthdays we've missed together.
It's all of you who make being so far away from everything I know manageable. Even the ones of you that are hibernating ;-)